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I was sick, then I was doing a rewrite, then it was a holiday and now....

The excuses have run out. For those of you reading, I've got a decent Basement Song entry coming up tomorrow over at Popdose. Please check it out.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about the way I edit myself on thunderbolt and how it may inhibit me in being creative. I think I'm going to try and be a little more loose with my constraints and see where that leads us. Would you like to come along for the ride?

I can't make any promises at how often I will be making entries over the next couple of weeks. I'm trying to work out a schedule. However, the marathon training will official begin in a couple of weeks. I assure you, my faithful readers (there may be 30, now) that I will continue to make regular updates once the running gets longer and harder.

Let me finish by telling you what a hero Jacob was yesterday. he had a doctors appointment down at Childrens Hospital. For the first time, he was doing a pulmonary function test (from now on known as PFT) to evaluate his lung strength. For the test, his nose is plugged and he blows into a plastic tube that does the measuring. Now Jake isn't one to take to new things. A couple of weeks ago, he was excited about getting his haircut with me at Sports Clips until the moment we walked in the door. Then he couldn't do it and was in tears. So we were very nervous about how he would do. Moreover, that he's doing a PFT is another reminder of the disease. All morning I was on edge, thinking about the test and what the results might be. Just thinking about it at this moment is making me sweat.

Well, Jake did awesome and his test results were great. I am so proud of him. And thank god he had Julie with him. I probably would have been a nervous wreck with a forced smile.

That's all for now.

Aloha

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