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Sorry I haven't been doing so well on keeping up the blog posts. Beginning tomorrow I am going to make another effort to write every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. That way all of you can plan your lives around ME!

Julie's folks returned from their trip to Big Sur and we spent one last night together before they had to return to Ohio. It was a festive night, but also one full of sadness. That we won't be flying back to Cleveland for Christmas is a drag. The past few years we have managed to eek out the money to get back there. Not this year. Although, we're not that different from most middle class families. Who can afford a $700 ticket?

The harsh reality of this day and age is that most families need double incomes to survive. Somehow, our family has kept our heads above water for the past five years. But times have gotten tight, my friends. Julie begins a second job tomorrow. She'll be waitressing at a new breakfast cafe opening near our house. She has to be there by 5:30 am. I'll be taking over all morning kid duties (i.e. getting them ready for school and walking them to school). I believe we're all going to be every tired, both physically and emotionally, for the next week so. Julie, in particular. She loves have that morning time with Sophie and Jacob. In addition, there will be some days in which she'll also go to her evening job.

I used to watch reruns of "Roseanne" and think, do people really have to survive this way? The answer is yes. I pray that the new position brings in enough income that she can quit the evening job. For now we're going to see how it goes.

I'd write about how worthless I feel that she has to take on extra work, but this isn't about me. She's the hero in this situation. What it has done is given me more drive to get a god damn script sold and another film project up and running.

Aloha

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