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WHMP 1-18-06


From:Scott
Date: Wed, 18 Jan 2006
To: Steve

Hey bro,

Since the race was this weekend and I'm still having trouble walking, I thought I'd send something that reminds me of the race.

"I've come a long way, I've come a long way...."

Man, nothing could be truer about a race in which you run in a huge circle. But, even though it felt like it at the end of the race, I had come a long way mentally.

Something happened during the run, Steve. That cloud... That despair I've been living with... I'm not feeling it. Maybe the tragedies of 2005 were affecting me more than I know. Or maybe I just needed 13.1 miles of pain to wake me up. But I feel renewed. That optimism you always say I have, it feels like it's slowly rising back to the surface.

Anyway, I don't know much about Michelle Shocked except that she's a modern folk artist and that she wrote this beautiful song about being in Los Angeles. It's true, you can drive around for an entire day in this city.... Possibly 500 miles, and you may never leave the city.

This particular recording came from an in studio radios session from a now defunct radio station that Jules and I loved back in the 90's (it's still weird to say "back in the 90's").

That there was a station out here that actually played the likes of Michelle Shocked was amazing. Of course, it only lasted a couple of years before the station was gobbled by a media conglomerate.

Enjoy the song. Have yourself a nice day. Hug your kids and wife. And remember to smile occasionally.

Best,
S

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